Din't know my dear friend actually tagged my blog. Din't went in for so damn long. Bout a year plus? Yeap, so how do i tell him that i actually saw his msg now. Feel so lost out of a sudden. Anw, he's always remember by us. He know that. Rmb it was actually just afew days ago when we just hav a party out with him and a few days later we are there gathering again to bid him goodbye. Don't know how to express this pain, but we jus hope the best for him and he hope the best for us here.
Since baby and i got back tgt, we hang out often. Genting trips, supper, birthday and blah blah blah.. He's always the gentleman (although u are the youngest).
Nth to say. jus miss you alot.

Ling.

The world changes our lifes, and we are now on our separate ways. We don't move on together, we don't share our dreams together and we don't sleep together anymore. I miss you, i really miss you. How do i tell you. Laogong i really miss you. That sentence will no longer be mine. I have started to move on my first month without you.. because you said we were never meant to be. Although i'm starting to have more guys around me, although everything seems fine to me. But i know you are the one who understand me most. Nothing and no one can heal my wound. The wound that u scared on me. .. Shouldn't think bout it anymore..
Anyway, guys who came to my blog, just wish to update you all that i'm still in my current job. Happily down there SERVING CUSTOMERS. Sound scarastic. But i love my collegues and friends that i made over there. I enjoyed my night life.. esp with sheila, my dearest. Our smoking session never ends. There's one person who i really appreciate, he was there for me when i'm at my lowest moment. Although now he told me we have to move on again.. Guys are always like that. My principle will be guys will only be my entertainment. NO BOYFRIEND FOR ME. I don't think there's any guys that is worth a girl's love. That's all. Having dinner with my sisters.

Actually, just then i realised that it was two months since i update my blog. Anw, we are back from our genting trip just ytd. Really missed there so much. The people there, the games, the times when i need not think about anything of work. SO RELAXING! But we have to be back. And i really missed laogong. He's in singapore. Haa. Anw, we will be having another trip to there during september yup! See Ya

I'm sad.. for no reason. I have not much to update because i have not so much activities recently except working. But i still miss them alot! They gave me a surprise on Sunday, came to parkway parade and wait for me to finish work. Our Genting trip is coming right! Let us enjoy ourselves this time! Today i'm Off, so at home slacking. Maybe tonight i'm accompanying laogong to buy his new year clothes. Hais, Don't know why recently we keep quarrel.. and he make me feel so sad and hurt sometimes. Sometimes i don't wanna think so much and hope for so much. If not when the answer comes out it will give me more disappointment. But i really hope he can join us for this trip, but too bad he is tied down this time. Let me pray..

Back to blogging after so long. I was so busy and tired. I love this job, just that the working hours make me tired. And i got a better job offer currently, so gonna try that out. I was just going for the first interview tomorrow so don't hope for it too much. As mentioned in previous post, i was transferred to parkway parade. Yes, i love there. The ppl their love me too i guess! Haa. Anw, i have no issue working there. Another thing, our genting trip is FINALLY NEAR! Going with my sisters and laogong. So, currently hope to save lots of money for this trip to fully enjoy myself! Still in the progress of quiting smoking and my this job don't allow us to smoke because we need to introduce skin care products to customer and testing on their hands at the same time. Thinking of colouring my hair again although my current gold hair is not so bad. Resemble those monkeys. And i want a tattoo! I actually found out that we do change over time without realising it actually. For example, i'm quite satisfied with myself now . Unlike last time , full of vulgarities and those ah lian life style, that sucks. Anw, what's so proud of ah lian, gangster or whatever? Although now i'm still abit wild but at least there's changes. Good nite peeps.

So tired.. Anyone just lend me a shoulder to rest? Been workng for 4 days non-stop. Finally got to off.. I'm now transferred to Parkway parade.. SO FAR! I still miss tiong baru, although i'm there not long.. I like the people there more.. And more relaxed! Nvm, hope i will be there only one week.. if not jialat. Damm tired. Nth but just working.. serving customer. but i learn alot of skin care knowledge and make up stuffs. Haa. Just met up with my sisters just now.. And i really missed them because i was like no life kept working for the past few days. TMR OFF!!!!! Going to enjoy this night.. That's all..

Back to blogging again.. Realise that everytime i wanna post a new one i would start with this sentence. That's me right? Anw, here to keep you guys update again. I have start my work in THEFACESHOP on the first day of Jan 2008!. Quite good thou, enjoying myself. First day i din't manage to sell any skincare product, cause i'm so blur about the product there.. But at least i still manage to sell some masks sheet. But no comission !! Except for that double pay. But ytd i work OT.. wonder how they calcuate the OT rates. Today i manage to sell quite a few skin care product. How my comission will be calculated? TMR IS MY OFF DAY. Finally i'm resting. Good nite!

Merry X'mas! Getting on self-high. Oh no. Went to vivo city with my dear(s) & Laogong. Ehh, today i make someone angry again.. LOL. Enjoyed myself at there, visited my friend at courts at night at vivo also. Sat at the coffeebean, crapping and eating. High-class ladies, we are those !! Anyway, i went throught two interview arranged by the faceshop. Successful. But pay for full-time is damm low. Try there out for a few months, and i'm going to continue looking for other jobs. Hais, after celebrating x'mas i have to start studying for exams again. Last two exams before i graduate from my diploma. Getting on my healthy lifestyle for so long, when is the last time i smoked a cigarette? One month ago? I'm just happy i' m able to quit it. Thanks to my sisters too. Maybe going zouk next wednesday.. Zouk's ladies nite. Dance dance dance, drink drink drink? Get drunk, oh no! Must not do so. Been asking myself, what is the thing i wanna try out for the year 2008. 2008 is near.. Tattoo? Or others? Still considering. But i would wish for a big change in my life. Don't wanna have the same routine everyday every year. But still, i would want all my love ones to stay beside me always. God, keep this forever with me. For this x'mas, i pray to God, that we have peace and harmony, that we are blessed by God every moments.

Hello peeps, i'm back to blogging.. Going to write an account of what i have done today. Done my accounting exams today. Quite ok lah.. Then whole afternoon slacking at home.. Eat,slp,eat. Chatting with my sisters at layhoon blog. Wahaha. Was fun, spent one or two hour crapping non-stop. Had my dinner at sunplaza with my grandma and sister and grandma's friend. CHICKEN RICE. The rice so fillings. Haa. But anyway, even if i slack whole day.. i enjoyed myself. Miss Laogong.. wahah!

Back to blogging again.. Having exams period now. Just finish my F&B exam. Tmr having accounting and finance. Haa. Am i well prepared? ... No words to comment. Anyway, today i make Laogong beri angry eh.. So sorry my dearest.. i will change ok ! Bleahs. See my sincerity dear? I apologise in my blog.. Love u. Short post again. :/

Selfishness is part of a nature of humans. Isn't it? Even how close this person is to you, even how much he/she says love you. How can that be compare with family bonds? From this lesson i have learnt about outside world's reality. Only my family members ain't selfish towards me. They care about my affairs, whether i have eaten and how am i feeling? Did others care? Even he claims to have take care of you, in the reality, did he ? This is one thing. Another cruel fact, TRUST. Now i know who to trust and who not to trust. I chose to trust your words even after so many incidents. Over and over again, did you fulfill what you said? Only my family members and close sisters can be trusted. Other than that, even the one sleeping beside you always, the one who hugged you, kissed you on your cheeks, can't be trusted. Sad to say this. But i gave up thinking. From what you did tells me alot, how much i can trust you. It's ok. I take this as a lesson learnt, acceptation to the cruel reality. Haven taken my lunch yet.. Hmm. Think i will just have a simple lunch, Cook maggi mee. Hee

Finally had my blog done up. All these credits goes to my dearest sister liyun. Don't wanna call her mushroom le, cause she really did a great job in helping me settling the codes. Thanks so much dear. Finally going clubbing again next fri. DXO perhaps. With my sistas and of course other friends. I wanna drink, but avoid getting drunk. Maybe my sis will be joining us too! First time ! Some are nt meant to be in your life and you are not meant to be in their life. Friends shouldn't be treated like this. Hope to get a new start for myself. Love laogong and sistas for their companion everytime! Hope this stay foreva. It's late. I'm uttering rubbish. I better catch some sleep before i break down. Good nite everyone.

Back to this place again. Where i let out my emotions. Feeling tired. Don't know why i just feel like going clubbing. Miss the feeling of getting drunk again. But the last two times i went i din't get drunk. So don't worry people. Wahaha. Perhaps nowadays my life is too stress up. And Sometimes i feel moody out of a sudden. Mood swings? ANYONE WANNA GO CLUBBING WITH ME? I wanna disturb my sisters again, ask them along with me. Haa. Short post. Now i'm going to eat my two packets of maggi mee. Tkcare guys

Happy to my ANG sistas once again, love them yup. Don't feel like going into bed although tmr i'm having early lessons. Been feeling moody tonight, don't know why. Yesterday i accompany Laogong to repair his lcd screen and we went shopping for a while in imm. Went to eat long john with him. Hee. Laogong, i hope that you will treat me so good everyday. So good so sweet. The feeling is like don't wish to part with you even we have to head for different directions in the evening. Laogong, jus wanna let you know that i'm really missing you now. I know now you are asleep, but just feel like talking to u. U know what, everyday we have no time to really chat bout what exactly each of us is doing everyday. Because when you working you can only sms or call me during ur lunch time and jus tell me that you ate ur lunch le. Then after you finish work, you just called me say you finish work le. And then at night you just call me say u going orh orh le. We have not much time to chat bout what exactly we have to say to each other. Sad sad. Feel like hugging my DAZHU. Haa. No matter what happens, i hope we would stay happy forever. Love me forever, will you?

Just came back from work, tired but feel like blogging. Even if i ask u to read my blog, i dunno whether u will want to come in and read. Anw, i jus wanna post what i feel like saying out. I really feel more and more tired in this relationship. Sometimes i may want to give up, but i just can't bear to. I really wish to salvage this relationship and make it like last time. Although last time almost everyday we quarrel, but i really don't mind. I don't mind crying every night but at least i know u care. Ever since you work at bird park, u have lesser time for me. But i didn't grumble. I know u need to work. But what i wanna say is that u have changed. Take it for example, last time you won't say that you need to have ur own life all these. I'm not saying that you shouldn't have your own life. You should have, but even till the extend that you need to calculate every single thing that what i shouldn't control and what i should ? At least last time if you know i'm sad you would not continue to do it. At least last time you have the least care for me. Last time you said as long as i talked to you nicely about the problems we two can try to work things out. Now even if i try to talk nicely to you about wat i dislike, you just replied, this is my life. I'm really very tired. Sometimes i really don't feel like carrying on, with the thinking that you said future is far for us. That's why i never go think le, i never ask for your ring le, most imptly, i never call you Laogong le. Everytime we quarrel i just want to resolve it because i really don't want any regrets le. That night at khatib MRT i cried so loud, not because u need me to be independant to buy food on my own. Is how i feel ur attitude towards me have changed. In my heart i feel that i'm no longer your precious baby. Just another Girlfriend u have. I don't know how to make myself special for you. I miss the guy that i love last time. When he was still in army and i would wait for him finish his army outside gate. I miss the guy when he was in tekong for the first three months. I didn't change, did you? Are you still the one i'm yearning for ? Or you wish to have a new start for yourself? I don't feel anything now. Just need your truthful answer. (:
: I dunno how to change lyrics but thats what from my heart:
我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由

Back to blogging again. Hurh. Been busy with lots of projects recently because i'm going doing last min thing. Today damn suay, Early morning come my monthly period and cause my stomach to be so cramp and i have to work after my sch. And after work i still need to finish my project that shuld be handed in tmr. Now i have completed my third project and im blogging to celebrate. Hmms, miss my laogong. Just now he came to fetch me after my work at compasspoint. haa. Although we had some arguements just now but laogong's temper today quite good. He didn't flare his temper but he talk to me with reasons. Good good. Continue wit that k laogong. And i'm now urgently looking for a part time job with high pay because i want alot money! I'm tired of having little money ! Anyone got lobang call me kk . Have not been thinking of clubbing recently because we had other activities!! wahaha Enjoy the last sat activities wher we enjoyed the whole day! And Laogong was their with us. Thanks laogong for accompanying baby. Thats all. Gd nite

Heh. Start my blogging mood in the early am. And tmr still gonna work almost full shift. This week schecule so packed. Monday didn't hav any activities. But frm tues onwards is so packed! Tues went to town to try out some clothes and hav dinner after my class. Wed, morning went for interview at sin ming rd after dat went for lunch wit lapuo lynn and her sis and one fool foot the bill for us! Wahaha. It was quite irritating though and i immediately complained to laogong. After that, at nite met my sistas at ah mei to hav supper. Heh. Thurs we went for bugis after work to shop for some clothes and eat. Our activities are mostly bout eating. And on fri, we had a whole day outing, frm morning we met at ard 9 and proceed to nyp to have our breakfast wit cheng and manual. After dat, valen, mushroom and me slack at cheng's lab while she went for a talk. After that, we went for k-lunch as planned. It's already two meals for the day. On the way towards amk hub, we bought some snacks to eat, thats already three meal. When we reached amk hub, some of them bought anderson's ice cream and thats already the fourth one. After that we went to shop for bag and turn to our left to have our ear pierce again! Cheng and me already hav 8 jus on our ear and still nt enough. lol. I have 9 plus my nose piercing. Think of piercing my eyebow the next time. Wahaha. After that we went to crystal jade to hav some chicken wings and that's already our FIFTH meal for the day. It's like we are always eating non-stop! After we went to marina sq. Took a walk for ard one hour plus and we are back to eating again! Ate subway and sat ther for ard half an hour. And the last last unbelievable thing was after eating subway, we went to the cafe jus BESIDE subway for some dian xin! So damn big eaters group! So altogether we had seven meals for the day! Freak!

Oh guys, i'm back to blogging again. Lots of things happened lately so loss of what i'm going to write. Went to MOS on the ladies nite, and that bed is so so comfortable. That night was for ladies one for one drink for alcohol and wines, so we ordered vodka lime each. Thank god that i din't get drunk. LOLs. I love that atmosphere but hate the song! I LOVE TECHNO! Haa. Going to DXO another day perhaps. Heard that there's big discount for bottle of Vodka. My diploma course is ending soon. Really need to buck up. Altogether now i got 8 piercing on my face. Hmm, thought of adding one more piercing..*evil thoughts. Haa. I wan new clothes and bag! Haa. I have stop the job at carlton hotel, tmr i'm going to sin ming rd to interview for best denki. Haa. I mis timezone, don't feel like quitting but the pay is really too little for my expenses. Oh ya. i have thought of what to put for my body tattoo. U guys shall be surprise when u all see it. Anw, don't look at my outer layer and judge my character. I DON'T LIKE TO BE CALLED CHAO AH LIAN! Becoz i'm just not that kind. I'm quitting dat smoking habit which i took up afew years ago, and i din't speak wit lots of vulgar. Only sometimes swearing and cursing when i'm losing temper. Those typical ah lian is so irritating. Wahaha. What's so nice bout being called ah lian? Haa. Anw, mis laogong. And stupid boy don't keep throw unreasonable temper on me.

Guys, i'm back to blogging again. Time passes so fast and it have been nearly two months since i last blogged. Partly is becos of my internet is down. That stupid SINGNET, coz us so many problems. My school starts again after two weeks of break. Haa. So what did i do for the last two weeks of my holiday? I went to NYP almost twice a week to accompany my dear sista, calin becos she is having her fyp now and she always complained that she is boring. Anw, on the 21st sept, we went to zouk wit another two guys. We really enjoyed ourselves clubbing. DANCING!! We drank, and thank goodness we all didn't get drunk. Hoho. Actually supposed to go on the oct 5 with our daddy and some of our ex-colleagues from yacht club. Hais, realy missed them i mus say. ESP daddy. :(
Lots of things i hav encountered. Laogong and my birthday hav passed.. We didn't celebrate it too nice its becoz our "hands are tights". But as long as our heart is tgt, we are happy as one. And on my birthday, my timezone colleagues gav me a small birthday party and i really love them so much!!
And on the sun oct 7, our dearest full time csa, mr halis, hav been transferred to timezone cwp. New evironment but we are really sad to see him leave !! They gave him a surprise farewell gathering but i'm absent for that becos i'm working. Anw, i'm nw taking two part-time job. First one in timezone and the other one is carlton hotel. Is is bestie lynn who brought me there. It was nice working thre and on the 19, i will be bringing my sista lh there too.
One more thing, today, amk police hq called me and asked me down for a statement. Becoz on the july i found one moblie phone while i am working and i sold it. Nw, i am charged. Hais.. so sad. I'm trying very hard to quit smoking and some bad habit. Partly is becos my parents advised me to quit it for my own health and also the financial wise, i have to do so. But it's really hard, becoz since 5 years ago i started smoking. hais.. When i din't smoke i can sleep the whole day. That's what my dad did observe too. Mum and Dad, i really trying hard so giv me more time ok? I may nt be able to quit once and for all but in the near future i will quit away this habit.