The times when u held my hands
The times when u whisper to my ears, " I love u"
The times when u hugged me tight


I miss them. Because the one i am looking for is no longer here. He's once my everything. He's once the one who i should have lean onto his shoulder to cry. But nw, he's the one who make my tears drop. Make my heart break into pieces, my thinking to fall. I don't know what i want now, what am i seeking for nw.. For this blog, everything will remain, but mayb i will not b updating here anymore. Keeping here as my memories and creating a new blog.

I rmb, hw i used to feel so helpless n hurt. How i wished to juz leave everything like this. But at the same time, i rmb how he used to be doting on me. That kind of words and feeling. It's so unique. But why our love cant remain?

My face look so fat and weird in this pic isn't it? Although it isn't so nice, but i love this pic lots. I rmb that day all of us were so happy. In fact, we have only three there. Two of us in the pic and one helped us took this photo. Have been lots of quarrels recently with HuBbY, and really sad.
LaoGong, i know u are trying ur best to make me smile. Try nt to make me angry. I know that. But still nt enough k.. I don't know if i'm the one asking too much or u are the one giving too little. But anyway, i still love u so much. Everytime i said that i don't love u as much it's all lie. In fact, i love u more. Our 11th month is just 10 days away. Hubby, we are reaching one year soon. We must let our relationship to be more stable. Let all the others be envious of us and not we are the one to be envious of others. We will be the most sweet and fortunate couples ya? That's warT we used to say in the past but seriously, i have the confidence to get back that sentence. My love for u will be never ending, just like ur love to me is forever. Let's not get anything to be in our way and strive to look at our future with bright and love. Love u lots Hubby.

Have been sick for the past few days, and i decided to blog today is becoz i suddenly have the thoughts of writing and typing. There's one thing i muz really comment. Is that things and people really changes fast. We can be laughing and joking juz two days before. But today, we are behaving like strangers. We are not considered friends, juz classmates. Do your see the difference? I used to confide in her, but nw i am bearing grudges against her. I bet she did the same too. Just becoz of that day, i rmb, how she left me alone and i turned and look at her with her friend. That facial expression on her, brought me back to that afew months when we got along well. Enough of talking about her.
HuBbY, please give me confidence, that faith and love that i have in u for the first three months. I believe u can do it. Don't try to break my heart everytime, becoz for all i noe, my heart is weak and i fear one day it cannot breathe again, when everytime u try to make it stop. I love u and i need u more than anyone else. I need that love and care from u. Not that cruel side of u, when everytime i heard u scold me, insult me and hurt me when i tried to make everything good for u. I thought of everything nicely for u. But everytime, u only said that i'm too demanding. It really hurts. Everytime i can feel my heart being slashed by u hardly. As i have said, don ever think of wiping my tears when u are the one who makes me cry. Don't ever think of mending my heart when u break it intentionly everytime. Because it really hurts more. I didn't chose to giv up everytime is becoz whenevery i'm sad and hurt, i thought of ur gentle. The times when u dote on me when i'm sick. Fetch me water and giv in to all i wan. It's really nice. That moment i wished, it would stay forever. I liked the times u scolded me when i'm too naughty, but not the times when u scolded me when u are feeling moody. Trust me, all girls at my age only wants a stable relationship and a doting bf. But not everytime like we are nw, keep having break-up and patch. It's tiring to u and me. It's not my fault when everytime i mention a break-up. It really hurts too. Because everytime i try to think of the days without u, i felt lonely in my heart, as if my life is going to have a big change. But i still did that becoz i don wish u to hurt me more. Sometimes i know, i'm unreasonable. But is becoz i have my own thinking. I know u have too. But HuBbY, we muz perservere, don't be so bad-tempered. Rmb, our aim is to see our future together. We muz nt giv up. We will be together forever.