My FAITH . Hais , warT can i believe in ? Hw can i ask my heart hw much i love u , so that i can know hw much i can trust u ? Tell me hw to be ur good gf . I know , both of us had lost the faith of thinking that our love can last . Seriously , i really lost it . Becoz we hav been mentioning this word " LEAVE " . (: I'm so sorry , i can't make our love last . And i know i won't be by ur side foreva . I know all those shouting and quarrels had made our relationship bad and there's no turn back . Ya , there's no foreva , but at least i hope that we can b happy together to save us from regrets next time. So din't know from when , i stopped shouting at u , to save myself frm regretting . (: " A LOVE THAT CONTINUES BUT NT LASTING "

Sry Baby darling , i know u r good to me , u r trying to giv me everything of urs and u are tolerating me so much . You r so good in my eyes and i nv want to notice . I'm so sry . Indeed , when u tell me that what i did make u sad , it also saddens me . Becoz i failed as ur gf . But Laogong , thx fer tolerating me these few daes . I promise i will b betta okays ?
Another ting , I was caught smokin last week by HSA and the letta came . Haa , my parents knew bout it . Sry again , i oso failed as ur daughter . ):

Yea , lots to sae again . I was caught smoking in cwp 2 daes ago n nw they are sending letter to my hse . -.-" I'm jus so suay ! God damn it ! So , i'm feeling beri stress , stressing on hw to get the key of the letter box so to duplicate another one SO THAT i will b able to open the letterbox everydae be4 my dad . My plan is todae and i'm so worrie nw . Nw waiting for my darling to online . (:

Sometimes i do wonder , mayb i need some brainwashing ? Or mayb it is some others who need it ? I was looking thru my post be4 deciding to post one today . For the recent few post i read , i felt warmth in my heart. I feel like turning back , turning the time back to the moment when i'm writing . Becoz , i no longer hav the warmth anymore. I am feeling cold , tired and warteva so . I feel so difficult to b a gd gf of u . I hav been thinking , is ur expectations too high for me or am i the one who fail to comply to u . Am i supposed to be complying to u nw or warteva i need to do to make u happy. Ur words that pricked my hearT or rather u wanna say that u juz wanna remind me, i'm jus ur gf , hav no right to control ur life ? Yea, i forget that i'm jus ur gf. I shouldn't be disturbing u every secs , most imptly i shouldn't b naming u my LAOGONG anymre. Den warT should i name u ? WarT can i do to make both of us happy again ? WarT can i do to make u say " i love u " so sweet again ? I'm saying all these nt to ask for anyone sympathy , but becoz all along , i didn't find a good soul mate to confide in. When i wanna confide in u at times , u jus turn ur back away . Den who else can i confide in ? God , such a long time u din't hear me , but i know u r still waiting to hear from me. God , can u tell me that all i did is wrong ? Can u show me a way out for the both of us ? And i chose to end tis post like dis . Becoz is the same feeling i hav nw . For the moment , i wanna stop caring n loving . I wanna b myself i wished , i wanna smile everyday and enjoy my shortest life to the fullest , wit ppl ard me . =) Ah wee, i shall name u tis . Hope u don mind.