Sometimes i do wonder , mayb i need some brainwashing ? Or mayb it is some others who need it ? I was looking thru my post be4 deciding to post one today . For the recent few post i read , i felt warmth in my heart. I feel like turning back , turning the time back to the moment when i'm writing . Becoz , i no longer hav the warmth anymore. I am feeling cold , tired and warteva so . I feel so difficult to b a gd gf of u . I hav been thinking , is ur expectations too high for me or am i the one who fail to comply to u . Am i supposed to be complying to u nw or warteva i need to do to make u happy. Ur words that pricked my hearT or rather u wanna say that u juz wanna remind me, i'm jus ur gf , hav no right to control ur life ? Yea, i forget that i'm jus ur gf. I shouldn't be disturbing u every secs , most imptly i shouldn't b naming u my LAOGONG anymre. Den warT should i name u ? WarT can i do to make both of us happy again ? WarT can i do to make u say " i love u " so sweet again ? I'm saying all these nt to ask for anyone sympathy , but becoz all along , i didn't find a good soul mate to confide in. When i wanna confide in u at times , u jus turn ur back away . Den who else can i confide in ? God , such a long time u din't hear me , but i know u r still waiting to hear from me. God , can u tell me that all i did is wrong ? Can u show me a way out for the both of us ? And i chose to end tis post like dis . Becoz is the same feeling i hav nw . For the moment , i wanna stop caring n loving . I wanna b myself i wished , i wanna smile everyday and enjoy my shortest life to the fullest , wit ppl ard me . =) Ah wee, i shall name u tis . Hope u don mind.