Merry X'mas! Getting on self-high. Oh no. Went to vivo city with my dear(s) & Laogong. Ehh, today i make someone angry again.. LOL. Enjoyed myself at there, visited my friend at courts at night at vivo also. Sat at the coffeebean, crapping and eating. High-class ladies, we are those !! Anyway, i went throught two interview arranged by the faceshop. Successful. But pay for full-time is damm low. Try there out for a few months, and i'm going to continue looking for other jobs. Hais, after celebrating x'mas i have to start studying for exams again. Last two exams before i graduate from my diploma. Getting on my healthy lifestyle for so long, when is the last time i smoked a cigarette? One month ago? I'm just happy i' m able to quit it. Thanks to my sisters too. Maybe going zouk next wednesday.. Zouk's ladies nite. Dance dance dance, drink drink drink? Get drunk, oh no! Must not do so. Been asking myself, what is the thing i wanna try out for the year 2008. 2008 is near.. Tattoo? Or others? Still considering. But i would wish for a big change in my life. Don't wanna have the same routine everyday every year. But still, i would want all my love ones to stay beside me always. God, keep this forever with me. For this x'mas, i pray to God, that we have peace and harmony, that we are blessed by God every moments.

Hello peeps, i'm back to blogging.. Going to write an account of what i have done today. Done my accounting exams today. Quite ok lah.. Then whole afternoon slacking at home.. Eat,slp,eat. Chatting with my sisters at layhoon blog. Wahaha. Was fun, spent one or two hour crapping non-stop. Had my dinner at sunplaza with my grandma and sister and grandma's friend. CHICKEN RICE. The rice so fillings. Haa. But anyway, even if i slack whole day.. i enjoyed myself. Miss Laogong.. wahah!

Back to blogging again.. Having exams period now. Just finish my F&B exam. Tmr having accounting and finance. Haa. Am i well prepared? ... No words to comment. Anyway, today i make Laogong beri angry eh.. So sorry my dearest.. i will change ok ! Bleahs. See my sincerity dear? I apologise in my blog.. Love u. Short post again. :/

Selfishness is part of a nature of humans. Isn't it? Even how close this person is to you, even how much he/she says love you. How can that be compare with family bonds? From this lesson i have learnt about outside world's reality. Only my family members ain't selfish towards me. They care about my affairs, whether i have eaten and how am i feeling? Did others care? Even he claims to have take care of you, in the reality, did he ? This is one thing. Another cruel fact, TRUST. Now i know who to trust and who not to trust. I chose to trust your words even after so many incidents. Over and over again, did you fulfill what you said? Only my family members and close sisters can be trusted. Other than that, even the one sleeping beside you always, the one who hugged you, kissed you on your cheeks, can't be trusted. Sad to say this. But i gave up thinking. From what you did tells me alot, how much i can trust you. It's ok. I take this as a lesson learnt, acceptation to the cruel reality. Haven taken my lunch yet.. Hmm. Think i will just have a simple lunch, Cook maggi mee. Hee

Finally had my blog done up. All these credits goes to my dearest sister liyun. Don't wanna call her mushroom le, cause she really did a great job in helping me settling the codes. Thanks so much dear. Finally going clubbing again next fri. DXO perhaps. With my sistas and of course other friends. I wanna drink, but avoid getting drunk. Maybe my sis will be joining us too! First time ! Some are nt meant to be in your life and you are not meant to be in their life. Friends shouldn't be treated like this. Hope to get a new start for myself. Love laogong and sistas for their companion everytime! Hope this stay foreva. It's late. I'm uttering rubbish. I better catch some sleep before i break down. Good nite everyone.

Back to this place again. Where i let out my emotions. Feeling tired. Don't know why i just feel like going clubbing. Miss the feeling of getting drunk again. But the last two times i went i din't get drunk. So don't worry people. Wahaha. Perhaps nowadays my life is too stress up. And Sometimes i feel moody out of a sudden. Mood swings? ANYONE WANNA GO CLUBBING WITH ME? I wanna disturb my sisters again, ask them along with me. Haa. Short post. Now i'm going to eat my two packets of maggi mee. Tkcare guys

Happy to my ANG sistas once again, love them yup. Don't feel like going into bed although tmr i'm having early lessons. Been feeling moody tonight, don't know why. Yesterday i accompany Laogong to repair his lcd screen and we went shopping for a while in imm. Went to eat long john with him. Hee. Laogong, i hope that you will treat me so good everyday. So good so sweet. The feeling is like don't wish to part with you even we have to head for different directions in the evening. Laogong, jus wanna let you know that i'm really missing you now. I know now you are asleep, but just feel like talking to u. U know what, everyday we have no time to really chat bout what exactly each of us is doing everyday. Because when you working you can only sms or call me during ur lunch time and jus tell me that you ate ur lunch le. Then after you finish work, you just called me say you finish work le. And then at night you just call me say u going orh orh le. We have not much time to chat bout what exactly we have to say to each other. Sad sad. Feel like hugging my DAZHU. Haa. No matter what happens, i hope we would stay happy forever. Love me forever, will you?

Just came back from work, tired but feel like blogging. Even if i ask u to read my blog, i dunno whether u will want to come in and read. Anw, i jus wanna post what i feel like saying out. I really feel more and more tired in this relationship. Sometimes i may want to give up, but i just can't bear to. I really wish to salvage this relationship and make it like last time. Although last time almost everyday we quarrel, but i really don't mind. I don't mind crying every night but at least i know u care. Ever since you work at bird park, u have lesser time for me. But i didn't grumble. I know u need to work. But what i wanna say is that u have changed. Take it for example, last time you won't say that you need to have ur own life all these. I'm not saying that you shouldn't have your own life. You should have, but even till the extend that you need to calculate every single thing that what i shouldn't control and what i should ? At least last time if you know i'm sad you would not continue to do it. At least last time you have the least care for me. Last time you said as long as i talked to you nicely about the problems we two can try to work things out. Now even if i try to talk nicely to you about wat i dislike, you just replied, this is my life. I'm really very tired. Sometimes i really don't feel like carrying on, with the thinking that you said future is far for us. That's why i never go think le, i never ask for your ring le, most imptly, i never call you Laogong le. Everytime we quarrel i just want to resolve it because i really don't want any regrets le. That night at khatib MRT i cried so loud, not because u need me to be independant to buy food on my own. Is how i feel ur attitude towards me have changed. In my heart i feel that i'm no longer your precious baby. Just another Girlfriend u have. I don't know how to make myself special for you. I miss the guy that i love last time. When he was still in army and i would wait for him finish his army outside gate. I miss the guy when he was in tekong for the first three months. I didn't change, did you? Are you still the one i'm yearning for ? Or you wish to have a new start for yourself? I don't feel anything now. Just need your truthful answer. (:
: I dunno how to change lyrics but thats what from my heart:
我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由