Just came back from work, tired but feel like blogging. Even if i ask u to read my blog, i dunno whether u will want to come in and read. Anw, i jus wanna post what i feel like saying out. I really feel more and more tired in this relationship. Sometimes i may want to give up, but i just can't bear to. I really wish to salvage this relationship and make it like last time. Although last time almost everyday we quarrel, but i really don't mind. I don't mind crying every night but at least i know u care. Ever since you work at bird park, u have lesser time for me. But i didn't grumble. I know u need to work. But what i wanna say is that u have changed. Take it for example, last time you won't say that you need to have ur own life all these. I'm not saying that you shouldn't have your own life. You should have, but even till the extend that you need to calculate every single thing that what i shouldn't control and what i should ? At least last time if you know i'm sad you would not continue to do it. At least last time you have the least care for me. Last time you said as long as i talked to you nicely about the problems we two can try to work things out. Now even if i try to talk nicely to you about wat i dislike, you just replied, this is my life. I'm really very tired. Sometimes i really don't feel like carrying on, with the thinking that you said future is far for us. That's why i never go think le, i never ask for your ring le, most imptly, i never call you Laogong le. Everytime we quarrel i just want to resolve it because i really don't want any regrets le. That night at khatib MRT i cried so loud, not because u need me to be independant to buy food on my own. Is how i feel ur attitude towards me have changed. In my heart i feel that i'm no longer your precious baby. Just another Girlfriend u have. I don't know how to make myself special for you. I miss the guy that i love last time. When he was still in army and i would wait for him finish his army outside gate. I miss the guy when he was in tekong for the first three months. I didn't change, did you? Are you still the one i'm yearning for ? Or you wish to have a new start for yourself? I don't feel anything now. Just need your truthful answer. (:
: I dunno how to change lyrics but thats what from my heart:
我想你不是真的爱我
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂
为什么真心伤得特别重
我想你不是真的爱我
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱有很多选择
我也可以给你自由