Maybe i really failed. I shouldn't have been too reliable on u. And nw, i feel that i can't live alone. I'm so afraid of loneliness and coldness. We should have keep a distance. I should have known this won't last forever. I have tried to keep u just nw, hoping that u will stay longer. But u insisted on going. U complained that my hse was too boring for u. I've got nth else to say. Let's just pray to God that we will stay on and don't part. I would just pray, because i don't hope for anymore. Neither do i believe and trust.